if u think the ring dt u wanted to buy
together with me
den forget bout it..
forget everything..
im so tired of being wrong by u
u dun understand me.
my feeling
nvr think in my shoes
jealous is not the reason for it
watever.. i dun wan to care animore.
let me rest for a lil while..
i cant breathe to think of it..
u noe how to say i dun understand ur feeling
as if u understand mine
how lonely am i when all of urs are working
or have smth to do
wat bout me..
fuk it.. i dun wan to tok bout it animore
dis is the last time i tell u
i dun wan to have ani quarrell
im soooo sick of it
if want it to be all good
den spare a thought for me
for this friendship to go on
if u wan to save dis friendship
but a lil understanding also not presence
den i guess its realli in a dangerous stage
since i have got my trust to be der
and i hope for urs too.
u noe why we cant be like them
cux u lack of simple trust in me
u jus tot wat i said
is all busllhsit
entertain u

me+ you
 12:57:00 PM

went out with my two babes
jo and mich on wed..
they rocks.. hees..
we enjoyed our days away..
hehes.. we went home kinda early
we are good gers.. =x
our photo rocks yeah..
*winks at jo n mich*
whahhas.. im mad..
it had been ages since we 3 met up
too bad gong went to m'sia
or else sista outing..
hees.. now some of them are working
so we might not be able to meet up so much
hahas.. nvm.. joanne alwaes so free
JOANNE is a FULL TIME PIG!!!!
*nod nod* agreeeeeeeeeee-
im jus part time.. cant fight with her..
ytd whole day stayed at home rotting..
its so boring can.. lols...
went to gym with my darling jo today
she is mad.. much more eager than me
to wait for chalet and xmas to come..
hahas..
jo, im broke hor..
so my present for u is my KISS!
im a good fren right..
none of my fren got dis privillege hor..
see i treat u so good.
dun say i cheapo again hor..
whahas.. =x
today gymnastic session was fun.
our lao mao bin you fan le
hahas.. our topic nvr has an ending..
too bad mich was working..
no worries next thurs,
u promised me to go out hor
mich will meet us.. whee wheeeeeee-
hahas..
scaryyyyyyyyyyyyy lah
next friday got back my result..
sunday is coming.. joanne gonna broke
whahas.. chalet is coming..
im so eager.. no more rotting day for me..
LOL.. =x

dear is working so hard..
i love him to bits!
he is my boy,my dear,my baby, my sweetheart, my everything!
he works so hard for us
der is realli no words can describe
how much i appreciate dat
its so tough for him
i jus love him too much!
he is the guy for me!
i will do everything to salvage this rship
dearieeeeeeeeeeeeeee-
i love you very much!
loveeeeeeeeeeeee-

me+ you
 1:48:00 AM

went out with my two babes
jo and mich on wed..
they rocks.. hees..
we enjoyed our days away..
hehes.. we went home kinda early
we are good gers.. =x
our photo rocks yeah..
*winks at jo n mich*
whahhas.. im mad..
it had been ages since we 3 met up
too bad gong went to m'sia
or else sista outing..
hees.. now some of them are working
so we might not be able to meet up so much
hahas.. nvm.. joanne alwaes so free
JOANNE is a FULL TIME PIG!!!!
*nod nod* agreeeeeeeeeee-
im jus part time.. cant fight with her..
ytd whole day stayed at home rotting..
its so boring can.. lols...
went to gym with my darling jo today
she is mad.. much more eager than me
to wait for chalet and xmas to come..
hahas..
jo, im broke hor..
so my present for u is my KISS!
im a good fren right..
none of my fren got dis privillege hor..
see i treat u so good.
dun say i cheapo again hor..
whahas.. =x
today gymnastic session was fun.
our lao mao bin you fan le
hahas.. our topic nvr has an ending..
too bad mich was working..
no worries next thurs,
u promised me to go out hor
mich will meet us.. whee wheeeeeee-
hahas..
scaryyyyyyyyyyyyy lah
next friday got back my result..
sunday is coming.. joanne gonna broke
whahas.. chalet is coming..
im so eager.. no more rotting day for me..
LOL.. =x

dear is working so hard..
i love him to bits!
he is my boy,my dear,my baby, my sweetheart, my everything!
he works so hard for us
der is realli no words can describe
how much i appreciate dat
its so tough for him
i jus love him too much!
he is the guy for me!
i will do everything to salvage this rship
dearieeeeeeeeeeeeeee-
i love you very much!
loveeeeeeeeeeeee-

me+ you
 1:48:00 AM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004


im backkkkkkkkkkk-
lols.. but im so boring
most of them are working
left few of us..
but still, towning is the job for us =x
hahas.. guess its gonna be routine..
chalet is coming soon
but RESULT is coming out next week
how how how..
scaryyyyyyyy-
dear is working oredi..
its rather a tough job for him eh
but hopefully he can adapt with it
hehes.. blah blah blah
okie... im bored..
its 2:32 am now and im still awake
okieeeeee lah.. go sleep leh...
nite peeps..

me+ you
 2:31:00 AM

Sunday, November 28, 2004


sometimes im wondering wat i realli want
suddenly im ruminating bout the past
i had so many regrets
regrets dat couldnt be undone at all
i noe one cant go back to the past animore
once it past,it past forever
i noe even i thought bout it again
im regreted but things oredi happened
couldnt be undone at all
couldnt change the fact that it had became like dat
last nite i supposed to feel happy for
my bro his wedding, his big day
but somehow i brought some worries der
nobody knows
and guess nobody will noe dat
luckily nth realli happened
i see noone der too.
i dun hope to see them
i worried dat i might see them der
since we all was a clique of fren beforeto anione,
i shld be happi to meet them up again
but der is one i din wish to meet again
im so afraid history might repeat again
but luckily i din see dat one person
and today all the past scheme happened to
fly thru my mind cux of his call
if one decision dat i made was diff at the time
perhaps my life now will be real different.
sometimes i thought i noe wat i want
and im into achieving wat i want
but sometimes i realise im not happi at alli dunno why.
im no longer who i am
i nvr think of thati tot all along the while im who im
on contrary,im a different person after all these years
im so tired. all i want is just a simple things
and yet i got nth bout wat i wan
who realli cares bout itnot even my parents i guess
they are der hoping dat i can study well
i noe they meant wellthey are my parents
but they are not the kind of parents
will chat bout my real lifeim living alone in my own world
most of the time im alone
im study in another place where
noone realli know wat im doing everysingle day
nooone worries for dat too
everyone thinks i had grown up
but deep inside im so lonely
sometimes im so tired of living alone
though der are cousins with me
but they are jus kidswhen i need a good chat
who realli der for me to be my listening ear
im so good at crapping ardbullshitting is my job
its because dat can kill my loneliness inside
ppl ard me got wat they wantits all a simple one
i dun ask for muchi put in effort to get wat i want
but sometimes i cant get it and instead of
seeing my effort,i became another irritating one
i hate myself at times.i jus dunno wat i was doing
i love to dream,to hope,to wish
all is jus so simplebut nth come true
the simplest i hope the more complicated i got back
is dat life? i hate it.
cant it jus like the way i want it to be
it realli kills me when i think of all of it
it supposed to be smth simple n sweet
and yet i onli see it at other's and not myself
im tired of thinking bout my future nor ruminating bout my past
its a torturing. nobody knows. i loathe the way it is.
okie. i dunno wats in my mind for now
i jus duno wat am i thinking for now.
perhaps the past had overflow my mind

me+ you
 1:43:00 AM

Saturday, November 27, 2004


[*_happy.birthday.daddy-*`]

12 had passed..
its daddy's bdae.
hees.. i love my dad to bits..
he aint want to go out for dinner
steamboat at home at night
hehes.. order a cake for daddy.
nobody knows..
mom said dun wan to buy cake
but i purposely order
hahas.. sister goes collect tmr
oh lalalala..
whole morning raining heavily
therefore i slept like pig
till 12 smth.. =x
since im jus spend my day away doing nth
so my room is the best
ahhas.. tv tv tv tv tv tv and tv
lols.. im practically rotting away
so bored can...
i miss dearieeeeeeee-
today jessie is coming to sg.
hahas.. alright...
today's randy's wedding
went der to congratulate him and chatted for awhile
he asked me if i can go over tmr..
see how first..
loads ppl der.. kinda crowded..
alright.. met some of my old fren.
they are alwaes the sweet one..

me+ you
 1:13:00 AM

Monday, November 22, 2004


its all because of you
im feeling sad and blue
you went away
now my life is just a rainy day
i love you so
how much you'll never know
you gone away and left me lonely

untouchable memories
seem to keep haunting me
of a love so true thats what turned all my gray skys blue
but you disappeared now my eyes are filled with tears
im wishing you were here with me
soaked with love all my thoughts of you
now that your gone i just dont know what to do- ooooh

if only you were here you'd wash away my tears
the sun would shine once again you'll be mine o mine
but in reality you and i will never beee
cause you took your love away from me

talk: girl i dont know what i did to make you leave me
but what i do know is that since you've been gone theres such an
emptiness inside im wishing youd come back to me

if only you were here you'd wash away my tears
the sun would shine once again you'll be mine o mine
but in reality you and i will never beee
cause you took your love away from me
oo baby you took your love away from... meee...

me+ you
 1:17:00 AM

Sunday, November 21, 2004


life is boring
life is miserable
life is real in mess
somehow im wondering wat i realli want
is jus so simple and yet
is so difficult to get it
sometimes i tot the simple i tot bout it
i want it
the more complicated it would get to be
cant it jus like wat i wanted it to be
but i guess dat life
a life dat full of unpredictable things
full of ups and downs
somehow i jus wan to be someone i love
someone i think i can lay my love on
but its real difficult
its full of obstacles.
but guess the obstacles that brought us
much stronger and more loving
but sometimes it made life more miserable

somehow i do envy my sis
she enjoys her life to the fullest
do wat she want
but without consider the consequences
dats the bad points
lols.. =x
but i can see her joy and happiness
at least im happie for her that
she has got a loving bf
hahas.. or shld i say
they r jus starting
so still on the honeymoon mood
oh laallalla.. im mad..
but at least my future bro-in-law
will be a good one i guess..
hahas.. but..
they r in puppy love mood =x
alright.. they have got my blessing..
hahas.. let them decide how their fate gonna be den..

somehow i wish we r okie oredi
but its realli confusing
he told me he dreamt of me
i was overwhelmed by dat
hahas.. i miss him!
but i dunno deep inside
how he feels..
i wish i could understand

me+ you
 10:48:00 PM

Saturday, November 20, 2004


happy birthday my sisterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr-
alright.. im gonna help her out
hopefully she will be enjoying
party away like nobody business
lols.. aiya. her bdae aint she is the one
who is busy for preparing =x
aight...
dearie exam is over
so he is going to spend his holidae away
i dunno how he is going to do durind dis long long
holidaeeeeeeeeeeeee-
alright.. im going to help mum up
ciao peeps..

me+ you
 1:20:00 PM

Wednesday, November 17, 2004


its 4 am now and i wonder why i cant slp
i wanted so sleep so much
im mad.. =x
i miss him.
he has got paper today
hope he can do it.

I cant stop loving you
So i've made up my mind
To live in memory
Of such an old lonesome time

I cant stop wanting you
Its useless to say
So I'll just live my life
In dreams of yesterday.

Those happy hours
That we once knew
Though long ago,
They still make me blue

They say that time
Heals a broken heart
But time has stood still
Since we've been apart

me+ you
 4:13:00 AM

Tuesday, November 16, 2004


my life sux..
everything is hell sux
everything goes haywire
i hate myself
i thought as long as u put in effort
to embark in everything u wan
u will get it
i tot its effrot tha realli counts
i ask for wat i wan
i work for wat i wan
but all seems useless
i cried when i watched the champion jus now
at least they have a happy ending
dat made me think of him
today since i woke up
i did all the house work
i mopped the floor upteens time
i made myself tired
but afterall
i din feel tired at all
instead of feeling tired
im feeling energetic
im better off dead
i hate myself
why i cant stand up animore
cant i realli wake up
he is not gonna pity me for anitin
he will ignore me
he wil hate me
watever.. i lost myself
i need time to find bakc myself
perhaps let me think everything
over and over again
den i wil be okie

dun worry gers
i wont hurt myself
i cherish myself
i wont torture myself with those pain
if i would hurt myself
i will choose to slp forever
dat willl be no pain
hahas.. im crazy
uncle said im scary
i can suddenly laugh out so loud
in this minute and next minute
im crying like hell
he wanna send me to mental hospital
he should =x


ALL OUT OF LOVE

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinkin' of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too, but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow would bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to sayThat I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I say
That I was so wrong

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say
That I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say
That I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say
That I was so wrong

me+ you
 10:18:00 PM

Monday, November 15, 2004


i seems to be so listless through out the day
i hope i can be lethargic as well
so i can sleep through out the day n night
den i wont think so much
i had been ruminating bout us so much lately
i miss everysingle of the memories
he left for me
i wish i can be some other ppl for the moment
im no longer the mailina i used to be
when everyone was asking if im okie
i would jus say im okie
say is so easy but to do it,is so difficult
i tot im a strong ger i used to be
even fall down i still can stand up
but its jus the tot
in fact im like a handicapped now
i cant stand up at all
i dun wan to cause hindrance for others
i keep it to myself
leave me alone,dun tok to me
give me time to learn to stand up
where is the strong ger mailina
or caused once i fall for him
i tot i will have him as my companionship
for life time. im too naive
im jus an idiot. think so highly of myself
tot i can be a real good gf
but im wrong.
i had so much confident in dis relationship
but now it had to end
life is so miserable and torturing
how i hope i can cry out loud
cry till i feel exhausted and i can fall aslp
sleep through out day and night
im debilitated by his love
his love is so strong dat beat me up
i seriously dunno how life will be without him
though he hardly with me
but he is part of mine oredi
he think that im gonna be fine soon
maybe i should.
shouldnt let anione worried for me.
let time heal my wounds.
i realli need his love to survive.

jo, thx so much!
i have never regretted knowing you
for that u r alwaes der for me
though we hardly can be together
but ur effort that made us together and so close
i love you darl!
i hope dat after u graduate
we stil keep in contact.
thx mich and gong!
4 of us wil always be sista!
i miss all my 917 babes.
i miss jo,mich,gong,claud,ruth,chuting
i mis u gers!
next year my life gonna be real different
all my babes had graduated
he leaves me too
how am i going to go through everything without em.
or perhaps sleep forever
so i wont have to worry so much.

me+ you
 11:33:00 PM

Sunday, November 14, 2004


i jus dun get why today why so many of them
mentioned bout r/ship stuff
early in the morning had a lil tok with him
but it made me so lost
im becoming increasingly despondent bout
the way things were happening btw us
im jus too lost in the middle of nowhere
i have no options but i gotta follow up
for i cant give him up
to everyone im alwaes that strongest ger ever
but now im real lost
but im gonna be aight
leave me alone for awhile
to calm myself down
and i'll be aight
im gonna go back to indo
how am i gonna face dad n mum if they ask
told em i disappointed em
or shld i shut my mouth
kept quiet like when emily's aunt
if i have a bf oredi
actualli i'll proudly say i have
if she asked a month ago
but i haven seen her for ages
more than 6 months
i wil be alright and i must be alright
for dat i promise dat i will
put muyself in the swimming pool
for 3 hours and i decided to stand up
since der is stil alil chance we can be together
den i gotta make it happen
i love him!

7 years and 50 days

7 years and 50 days the time has passing by
nothing in this world could be
as nice as you and i
and how could we break up like this
and how could we be wrong
so many years so many days
and i still sing my song

i belong to you .. like i always do
when i close my eyes and i think of you
such a lonely girl, such a lonely world
when i close my eyes i dream

i returned to you .. like i always do
when i close my eyes and i think of you
such a lonely girl, such a lonely world
when i close my eyes i dream of you

7 years and 50 days now just look at me
am i the girl i use to be
so damn what do you see
and how could we breake up like this
and how could we be wrong
so many years so many days
and i still sing my song

me+ you
 10:54:00 PM

Saturday, November 13, 2004


today is our 8 months
supposed to be happy
but it turned out to be smth unsure
i lost when i heard dat word of
dunno if we actualli made it
our 8 months
does that words means smth
does it implying smth
i dun wan to noe wat does it means
im feeling like dying
i tot everything will be so good soon
1 more months to go and
we will be able to be together
but now i dunno wats went wrong
prolly my fault
smth dat is done without knowing
i ruined it
im crying like hell
but does dat help
currently suffering from slp deprived
im hell lost
my mind is blank
i miss him.
its so hard for him to have a gf like me
its like im adding burden to him
i dunno
but i love him
trying to figure out dis life
nothing is going right
everthing is in mess
maybe leaving myself alone
will be the best out of it
tell me wat to do
lead me back to the way we used to be

me+ you
 8:06:00 PM